So it has been 100yrs since I posted on my blog & here's what you need to know:

• I graduated! Not suma whatever but I got my B.A. in Psychology from the Univ. of Tampa so TAKE THAT!

• I moved back home [& got my full-time job back. hello big paycheck every week.. I will need you for bills~]

• My boyfriend of almost 4yrs is leaving for England for the next, oh you know, like 5yrs.. & I'm not-so-secretly dying inside.
• Due to the last bullet point, I will be researching Master's programs in England for next year [I'm not rich enough to move over now, so I have to work my butt off until next year..]
• I'm thinking of making a new blog [I know, I love this one, but I actually want to get pretty serious with my blog stuff & a new, more refined blog may be the ticket]; I'll keep you informed for all of you still following!
• I am seriously contemplating getting a puppy... & another job... & an apartment [clearly not in that order].
• I have lost 4lbs randomly between my week of beach vacay & my move home, I have no clue how or where~
• I will be taking up Zumba again shortly, investing in a treadmill, & buying new tennis shoes :)
• I am slightly obsessed with Poshmark. It is VERY addictive [look me up at msteaq on their iPhone app]
• I had a birthday [yeah, I kind of forgot that for part up at the top] & turned 22. Somehow I feel older this time? I'm not sure why.. but it is kind of nice.
• My mother [for my birthday] bought me the ticker-tape appetizer plate set [2 OF THEM!] from Kate Spade... & I died inside because I love those!
• I realized in the past weeks after graduation that I really need to start living my life before I'm knee-deep in paperwork, work itself, or otherwise.

Well, I hope that brings you up to speed & I'll try to start blogging more frequently again <3

Ciao!

PS. Here is a cute photo to make your day brighter!

My little Tembo sleeping with his favorite play toy [a small soccer ball]

Oh hey weight! So glad you're back...

NOT.


So, the weight I lost has either repositioned itself or half of it came right back [that's what I get for trying to study and get stuff done and not work out..]. Now, let's be clear. I most likely brought this upon myself [not the weight, this realization. but thanks for thinking the first, bitch~] by going to the mall today and thinking "I need a nice new bikini :)" then going to try it on in the horrific fitting room lighting. About the time I slipped my too big sz 12 jeggings off onto the floor and saw my thunder thighs in the mirror, I decided I was not in the mood to try anything on.. but I did. Which is why I'm venting now [it. was. not. good. trust. me.].

Therefore, you should get excited to hear my ranting and about my crazy antics in the gym, on my bike, on walks, on runs, while I'm craving delicious things..because the dramatic weight loss has to begin ASAP. Again..

PS. No more trying things on in stores. Even if I hadn't been overweight, the lighting makes you look like you haven't slept/tanned/bathed in months *gag*

PSS. I sold my first item on Poshmark [iPhone app that is amazing; you can put all kinds of stuff on there that you want to get rid of in your closet... visit the website here] and I may buy my first item from someone tonight! Look for my page under my name: msteaq

Ciao!

That moment when..

[a collection of awkward/annoying/crazy/awesome things that happen all the time].

• you would definitely ram your car into the idiot driving [if that's what he/she calls it..] in front of you, if you could remain anonymous and your car wouldn't be destroyed too.
• you beat someone to the last parking spot available on the row.
• someone's child [that they had to bring with them out in public] constantly bumps into you in line or tries to hang off your purse [take your birth control.. or teach your child to chill out].
• you have just enough money to buy whatever it was you needed from the store.
• you realize you've just gotten stuck in the "welfare/food stamp" check-out line at Wal-Mart and you're in a hurry..
• you finally notice one of the magazines you always buy is $5. Seriously?? 
• you throw out all bad fruits/foods, clean the whole apartment, and you still find gnats -_-
• someone says that you look like you've lost weight.
• the flavor you love from Pinkberry [lychee] is completely out in 1 week.
• you realize the person at the customer service counter, knows as much about the thing you're asking about...as you do.
• you know you need to, but you don't... do laundry.
• you finish a workout and feel a sense of accomplishment :)
• you have an amazing idea about what you want to do for the rest of your life and then you realize how much you actually need to get done work-wise before you can even BEGIN to think about things like that, so... you keep thinking about it anyway and it consumes your life until you have a severe reality check by looking at your planner [A.K.A. what happened to me this weekend].
• you decide this is enough examples and you really need to get started on your work-- Ciao guys and gals!!

Random, but-- this is from a page I follow on Tumblr. How can you not melt when you see dis wittle face!!?

"Weight Loss is..

Internal, not just external." I heard that today while watching Heavy [a show about obese people who diet/exercise/work their tails off {quite literally} to lose weight] and it really resonated with me. Without losing what we hold within ourselves, we can never let go of what lies outside ourselves. It's a crazy concept, but it's so accurate, which is why [I guess] I feel the need to share.

Real talk: I am a clam. I bottle things up and I do not like to share with others, therefore others may find me cold and blunt. Unfortunately, it causes my friendships to deteriorate. I carry that concern with me and my worries and my stresses, everyday. I tend to feel insecure about myself. I hate to workout because I am embarrassed that I have gained SO MUCH WEIGHT since I came to college.. and I am never motivated about losing weight. But by God, I am determined to not carry this weight with me any longer. I am sorry for friendships I may have neglected and I am sorry to myself for putting my health on the back-burner for so long.

On a lighter note [!!], I went to Zumba today and had a pretty amazing workout [& by pretty, I mean I was wearing some of my new awesome workout gear]. I have also decided to start [slowly] running, because I really want these lbs to come off and cardio by walking on the treadmill at a 3.5 pace or Zumba once a week is not cutting it~

P.S. If anyone has any tips about starting running [because this pony is fresh out the gate, for real] or biking [I definitely own a bike and never use it, hello, welcome to my life..], please feel free to share your wisdom. I will need and appreciate it.

Okay, enough melancholy chatter, here's a cute photo to cheer you [and myself] up :D

Otters: they're just like us... except their kisses are MUCH cuter.

 

If I were a boy..

I would wanna be a drag queen [teehee]. If you haven't been to a drag show or watched Ru Paul's Drag Race [BTW-- this season, Latrice is MY GIRL!], you haven't truly lived [that's an exaggeration, but nevertheless]~ I went to a drag show at Hamburger Mary's and it was so much fun [more fun even, when you've had a Long Island and a Mojito!]. I was with my girls and we danced in our seats, we tipped a queen or two [the one time I've actually had dollar bills in my wallet], and sang/danced along to some fabulous songs; it was truly a fabulous/hilarious night.

Now that my weekend has wound down and I'm trying to avoid studying for my exam tomorrow morning I thought I'd give the update and the final photos [for the juice diet anyway].

Final weight loss: 6lbs
Final size loss: 1.5 pant size [I'm in between sizes, so sue me]
Final looks: [photos below, don't judge-- and yes, I changed bathing suits, it is not a different person like those stupid Hydroxy-cut commercials... which you can probably tell because in this set of photos, I'm not 45lbs lighter and super tan]

I need a prof. photographer; but I think I look a tad smaller

Little less belly fat~

Without working out arms, it's basically the same.

***Side note: you may have noticed there's a back shot missing. Let me save you the time. My fat ass is the same. No need for you to see that sight twice~

Final words: Reboot juicing diet is not for the faint of heart. It did not boast to make you lose 30lbs in 30days, however, their website shows mainly large lbs losers on the juicing diets. The reality is it doesn't matter what the diet, if you cannot keep it up consistently and you do not work out enough, it may be all for naught~ I have learned my expensive, time-consuming, discouraging, reality-inducing dieting lesson!

PS. I'm on Bloglovin! If you like reading my sarcastic, fabulous blog, please go to it, sign up, and follow this blog [you can get the link from my last post about Bloglovin]. It is an easy way to follow and see my new posts and you can follow any other blogs you like as well [I am currently in love with The Glitter Guide and it's creator's blog, Sterling Style]

PSS. What kind of posts would you like to see from now on?

• Diet/Workout?
• Style/Beauty?
• Soapbox-type Commentary?
• Whatever else?

Please comment below & let a girl know~